"suck it up! you don't have that long!"

not much to report. had my group b strep test, that was uncomfortable, will find out results sometime i guess (though i have no idea when). also had my first internal exam, that was very uncomfortable (as in i practically jumped up the table) and yielded disappointing results - cervix closed for business. i know it means very little at this point and that we don't WANT a baby coming early, and that even though 37 weeks is technically "full term" that it's better to go the full 40 wks; HOWEVER, i also know you can stay at 1cm for weeks before anything happens, and with my familial history of "failure to progress" i was just hoping for something positive dilation-wise.

again, i got little to no information from the ob - no idea what i'm measuring for the uterus, no idea what the baby's heartrate was (though it sounded fine to my untrained ears on the doppler), no idea about the baby's station or effacement (though both are probably uninteresting given the fort knox cervix). i asked my questions about my sore throat (no worries, looks normal, take allergy meds if you have nasal drainage), weird buzzing (no worries, try stretching!), taste issues (NO! DON'T ADD SALT! you might make the swelling worse - like that's possible - and also, no worries, tastes change during pregnancy). so all in all i got a big, fat, "suck it up, you don't have that long to wait" oh yeah, just another 4-6weeks, that's nothing. i encourage anyone who thinks that's "not that long" to put on a belt (underneath your clothes), tighten it to just where it's comfortable, then tighten it another notch... and then leave it on. 24/7, waking, sleeping, showering, exercising -- just leave it on for even a couple days. THEN tell me how you feel when someone says, "just 4-6 more weeks!" with a smile on their face. oh yes, you will want to punch them in their shiny, happy teeth.

i know this is what all pregnant women feel like, and i know that i should "treasure this special time with my baby" and "enjoy the time with my husband" but i really wish the doctors would at least pretend like they care. andrew says he thinks they care, but after waiting over 30 mins to see a doctor (who i saw standing around talking to other doctors about their weekends, while i waited) i just wish they wouldn't act like they were in such a hurry to get on to the next patient.