things i'd really like to do this year...

1. lose 22 lbs (yes, 22. not 20 or 25... although once i lose 22, i'll probably want to lose 20 more, cause then i'd be at my college/wedding weight - sigh, that brings to light the 42 lbs OVER college weight i am... ON TO THE NEXT TOPIC!)

2. get the house to a clean state and keep it there on a regular basis
3. begin working on the outside of the house so that we don't look like we're out of deliverance
4. get more involved on a regular basis with a christian group (church, biblestudy, small group... something)
5. stop feeling like we're treading the financial waters and start putting money away again, ugh.
6. get my bronze (not sure what horse i'd use, where i'd get the money for the shows/registration/lessons, etc, but who cares!)

these all seem like insurmountable tasks, and tell you a bit about where my head is currently, AND i'm not calling them resolutions or even holding myself to some sort of timeline, they're just some things i'd like to do!

sickies

well, i dropped the ball on this blog bigtime, but i've been SO busy! since tess and i are both home sick, i thought i'd give you a quick update (quick though, because apparently sick tess = no sleep tess), and the steroids make her crazy!

so tess did great at grandma lynn's house that night, and andrew and i got to enjoy a much needed night to ourselves - we went to a christmas party out at the barn and then got a night without a baby monitor. we can't wait to do it again! don't get me wrong, but it's nice to be married and not have to care for your child every once in awhile too! then we had christmas, and everyone came over to our house instead of making us travel around a toddler's naptime, which was great. we also had nana stay over one night, so that andrew and i could have another date (this time allll alone out to the melting pot!). then we had new years at a friend's house and took tess to spend the night... the night was fun, but as soon as we went to bed, tess woke up every hour, so we left early that morning and drove home to try and sleep it off.

i actually took the week between christmas and new years as vacation, so although i worked christmas eve and jan 2, i had a nice long break, when andrew was also off, for the first time in over a year. it was awesome. neither of us ever wanted to go back to work again. why aren't we independently wealthy?

well, my child has beckoned me to come sit with her, so that's all i have time for now!

tess's first night away from home!

well she's been away from home before, but tonight will be tess's first sleepover with no parents involved! she's going to her grandma lynn's house ALL night, and we're so excited! i'll post again with the full report :-)

i gotta be honest

some days, i just don't feel like being a mom. or a wife. i just want to be me, by myself, do what i want, and be selfish. yep.

like today, after the child has screamed (and i mean literally screamed) at me for hours, and i had a fight with my husband at lunch, wherein i was informed that i am usually, if not always, unpleasant to be around. all i want to do is drop the kid off at one of those "right time kids" places, drop the wedding bands on the dining room table, and hit the road.

instead, i came home, put tess down for a nap, and got dinner started in the crock pot. i should be cleaning, but i'm not.

Runaway Bunny / Goodnight Moon

Tess and I went to see The Runaway Bunny and Goodnight Moon at Stewart Theatre today. It was performed by a theatre group from Canada and was pretty cute. Tess seemed to enjoy it for the most part but got antsy during the slow musical parts. Here is Tess reading her upside down program before the show started.

We got there and had about 15 or 20 minutes to wait before the show started. This was her favorite thing to do once she figured out that the chair moved. Wait for it, it's really funny.



-Andrew

19 month words

tess had her 18 month check-up today -- which was really a sick patient visit, and actually occurred now that she's 19 months, but that's not the point -- the point is she's a genius. but we all knew that. and in honor of her intellectual brilliance, i wanted to make a list of the words she says... or at least try to remember most of them, because there are tons!

mama
dada
tess
nana
grandma
bubba (for bubba, the fish remote control holder at my parents' house, and the name of her new beta fish)
kitty
dog (or more frequently "woof woof")
shoes
socks ("sha")
sit (which sounds like "shi")
up
down
upstairs
outside
all done
more
tractor
stop
please
no
yeah
out
shh shh (fish)
two
twee  (three)
woah
uwo (hello? - while holding the phone)
eyes
nose
toes
shirt (sounds like "shi" also)
eat
pass (for paci)
baby
uh uh uuuuhhh (for the theme song to "elmo's world")
cheese
milk
juice
on
off (sounds like ot)
eh eh eh (said quickly so as to sound like a nicker - means horse)
most animal sounds
ouch
hot (also more like "ot")
ice
bubbles

and that's all my tired mommy brains can think of this late at night!

supermom strength

ok, so you know how they say moms have super-human strength when their babies are in danger? well, it is definitely true.

this morning, i packed tess up in the car and headed out to get the new scotty cd (which is AMAZING), and the whole way back she was fussing and whining and just like... moaning, and i knew it was because naptime was coming up, and she's fighting off a cold (and losing), so i was trying to be understanding, but it was realllllly draining to hear that for 15 mins straight.

so we got home and pulled into the driveway, and one of the songs was coming to a close, so i decided to leave the music playing while i got her out of her carseat. i had been distracted because of the droning on and was thinking about the great weather, the great cd, and how we were finally home so tess could take a great nap. i opened the door and got out, and started walking around the back of the car to get to the passenger's side to let tess out -- and then realized that the van was moving.
and it was rolling straight towards the house. shit! talk about panic! not only is the car NOT supposed to be moving, but it's definitely not supposed to be traveling into the side of the house -- with my daughter in it!

so many things were running through my head. how did this happen? did i forget to put it in park? i always put the emergency break on, did i forget? oh no, it's about to hit the driveway light! wait, it's about to hit the house! wait, tess is going to die!!! and why hadn't i already opened the passenger door with the electronic button like i usually do? i could just grab her out if i had... and on and on and on. but these thoughts all ran through my head in the course of less than a second because before i knew it, i was running to the front of the van and pushing on it trying to get it to stop.

oh dear, i said to myself, this thing is heavier than i thought! ...which didn't make any sense, because of course it's heavy, IT'S A MINIVAN -- made of steel, with my child inside! shit!
so i pushed harder. and in another second, the rolling stopped. great! now what?! the thoughts started streaming through my brain again, if i let go, it'll keep rolling. if the car is off, will the break still work? how fast do i have to run and grab the door and jump in before it runs over the driveway light and starts barreling into the house?! i know, i'll push it uphill away from the house and THEN run! so i did.

i pushed the van, with a curb weight of 4,255 lbs, from the standstill that i was holding it at, backwards a foot or two and then sprinted around the side, grabbed the door, flung it open, and smashed my foot into the brake pedal, stopping the car. and then i hear tess laughing.

apparently, mommy freaking out and running around the van, pushing on it, and sprinting and jumping into it like a madwoman on fire is hilarious. glad i could make ya smile, kid! and also, you can call me supermom.