Thursday, May 31, 2012

And God Said "NO"



 I asked God to take away my pride and God said "No".
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole and God said "No".
He said his spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience and God said "No".
He said that patience is a by-product of
tribulation; it is not granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness and God said "No".
He said He gives blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain and God said "No".
He said, "Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to Me."

I asked God to make my spirit grow and God said "No".
He said I must grow on my own, but He will
prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked God if he loves me and God said "Yes".
He gave His only Son who died for me,
and I will be in heaven someday because
I believe.

I asked God to help me love others as much as He loves me, and God said,
"Ah, finally you have the idea".


this poem was sent to me from a friend in biblestudy, and i thought it was worth sharing. hope it helps you if you're wondering what to ask, or why God sometimes says no. and if not, it's a good reminder for me! :-)

Friday, May 25, 2012

no-paci tess

tess has had a paci since she was about 2 weeks old. it was a permanent fixture when she was breastfeeding due to her reflux, and then she used it for car rides, naps, bedtime, and soothing.

at some point, we stopped using it for soothing. then, we got the dvd player in the minivan, so we weaned her off using it in the car. when she went to daycare, she stopped using it at naptime there, but still uses it at home. and though she doesn't keep it in her mouth, she uses it to get to sleep most of the time. but this week, we've been discussing with her, the idea of sleeping without it.

yesterday, she wanted it for her nap, but she ended up throwing them all out of the crib, and when i got her after her nap, she told me "no paci".

we let her have it last night because she was at lynn's, but this morning, we discussed not having it tonight. then, tonight, she asked for it, and we reminded her she was going to try to sleep without it. she acted like she was going to be upset, but didn't start to cry or anything.

we put her down... and she went to sleep.

now, i don't know if this is going to last all night, but i just wanted to document it in case this is the start of no-paci tess!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

in response to the amendment


when i think of my faith, and i think of all the things we're supposed to hold dear, and all the commands we're given, and all the grace we've received, and how we're supposed to act in response to that grace, i just can't find a rationale for hatred and bigotry. 
so i thought about all the comments on amendment one, and all the christians trying to justify its ramifications through their "faith" and "what the bible says", and all i could think of was the five excerpts below. they're long, but the bible's a long book, and i think if i'm going to try to combat people taking snip-its out of context, i should provide some context myself. the main point i was thinking of in each one is highlighted in red. 
if you read all of this and still want to argue about what our most important jobs as christians are, please let me know, because you've been given a revelation that i haven't, that i'd like to hear.


Exodus 20
The Ten Commandments
20 And God spoke all these words:
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt,out of the land of slavery.
“You shall have no other gods before[a] me.
“You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.
“You shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.
“Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. 11 For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.
12 “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live longin the land the Lord your God is giving you.
13 “You shall not murder.
14 “You shall not commit adultery.
15 “You shall not steal.
16 “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.
17 “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male or female servant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.”


Matthew 28
The Great Commission
16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

John 3
Jesus Teaches Nicodemus
Now there was a Pharisee, a man named Nicodemus who was a member of the Jewish ruling council. He came to Jesus at night and said, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the signs you are doing if God were not with him.”
Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.[a]
“How can someone be born when they are old?” Nicodemus asked. “Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!”
Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit[b] gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You[c] must be born again.’ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”[d]
“How can this be?” Nicodemus asked.
10 “You are Israel’s teacher,” said Jesus, “and do you not understand these things? 11 Very truly I tell you, we speak of what we know,and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony. 12 I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things? 13 No one has ever gone into heaven except the one who came from heaven —the Son of Man.[e] 14 Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the wilderness, so the Son of Man must be lifted up,[f]15 that everyone who believes may have eternal life in him.”[g]
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed.21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.


Romans 3
God’s Faithfulness
What advantage, then, is there in being a Jew, or what value is there in circumcision? Much in every way! First of all, the Jews have been entrusted with the very words of God.
What if some were unfaithful? Will their unfaithfulness nullify God’s faithfulness? Not at all! Let God be true, and every human being a liar. As it is written:
“So that you may be proved right when you speak
    and prevail when you judge.”[a]
But if our unrighteousness brings out God’s righteousness more clearly, what shall we say? That God is unjust in bringing his wrath on us? (I am using a human argument.) Certainly not! If that were so, how could God judge the world? Someone might argue, “If my falsehood enhances God’s truthfulness and so increases his glory,why am I still condemned as a sinner?” Why not say—as some slanderously claim that we say—“Let us do evil that good may result”? Their condemnation is just!

No One Is Righteous
What shall we conclude then? Do we have any advantage? Not at all! For we have already made the charge that Jews and Gentiles alike are all under the power of sin. 10 As it is written:
“There is no one righteous, not even one;
11 
    there is no one who understands;
    there is no one who seeks God.
12 
All have turned away,
    they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
    not even one.”[b] 
13 
“Their throats are open graves;
    their tongues practice deceit.”[c]
“The poison of vipers is on their lips.”[d] 
14 
    “Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.”[e] 
15 
“Their feet are swift to shed blood;
16 
    ruin and misery mark their ways,
17 
and the way of peace they do not know.”[f] 
18 
    “There is no fear of God before their eyes.”[g]
19 Now we know that whatever the law says, it says to those who are under the law, so that every mouth may be silenced and the whole world held accountable to God. 20 Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God’s sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of our sin.

Righteousness Through Faith
21 But now apart from the law the righteousness of God has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. 22 This righteousness is given through faith in[h] Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement,[i]through the shedding of his blood —to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished — 26 he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.
27 Where, then, is boasting? It is excluded. Because of what law? The law that requires works? No, because of the law that requires faith. 28 For we maintain that a person is justified by faith apart from the works of the law. 29 Or is God the God of Jews only? Is he not the God of Gentiles too? Yes, of Gentiles too, 30 since there is only one God, who will justify the circumcised by faith and the uncircumcised through that same faith. 31 Do we, then, nullify the law by this faith? Not at all! Rather, we uphold the law.


1 Corinthians 13

13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge,and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


now, don't get me wrong, i'm not saying there are no laws, there is nothing wrong in God's sight, and that we should just go around doing whatever we want, whenever we want, however we want and just expect that there are no consequences, but tell me, 

do YOU keep the sabbath holy? 

have YOU ever taken the Lord's name in vain?

do YOU spend your time worshipping facebook and blogs with your time rather than the Lord, and thus make idols of them?

do YOU covet what your rich neighbor has?

have YOU looked lustfully at another person?

are YOU without sin? because if so, you go on and cast that stone.

but if you fall into the class of all-humans-who-aren't-Jesus, and thus are a sinful, imperfect creature, what should you be spending your time on? making laws to discriminate against others in the name of faithful obedience, or responding to the greatest sacrifice of love by sharing it with others? 

we are commanded to LOVE the Lord and LOVE our neighbors, to share Jesus with the world, to make disciples of all nations, and to reach all people to the ends of the earth --single people, married people, unmarried people, black people, white people, gay people, straight people, children of traditional families, and children of non-traditional families, orphans, widows, nice people, mean people, ALL people. i'd say that's probably what we should be focusing on. 

just sayin'.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

update

I thought I'd update you on how my progress is going. I'm writing from my cell phone, so I have to be brief because this is too difficult for me! But I am making some progress on my goals:
 I have lost 6lbs, which is a big deal for me :-)
 We have started attending a church regularly, and Andrew and I are even going to a Bible study as of last week, so that's good. 
The house is still a mess, but we're hoping to work on the outside this weekend.
Andrew got a small raise at work, which we're so proud of in this economy, but with gas prices continuing to rise, still won't be securing our financial outlook. I'm thinking about making some changes with my work situation/daycare to help more if possible.
 No progress on the bronze medal situation, but a girl can dream, right?
 That's all for now, folks! I can't stand trying to type on this phone any longer! Happy Easter!

Monday, March 12, 2012

things i'd really like to do this year...

1. lose 22 lbs (yes, 22. not 20 or 25... although once i lose 22, i'll probably want to lose 20 more, cause then i'd be at my college/wedding weight - sigh, that brings to light the 42 lbs OVER college weight i am... ON TO THE NEXT TOPIC!)
2. get the house to a clean state and keep it there on a regular basis
3. begin working on the outside of the house so that we don't look like we're out of deliverance
4. get more involved on a regular basis with a christian group (church, biblestudy, small group... something)
5. stop feeling like we're treading the financial waters and start putting money away again, ugh.
6. get my bronze (not sure what horse i'd use, where i'd get the money for the shows/registration/lessons, etc, but who cares!)

these all seem like insurmountable tasks, and tell you a bit about where my head is currently, AND i'm not calling them resolutions or even holding myself to some sort of timeline, they're just some things i'd like to do!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

sickies

well, i dropped the ball on this blog bigtime, but i've been SO busy! since tess and i are both home sick, i thought i'd give you a quick update (quick though, because apparently sick tess = no sleep tess), and the steroids make her crazy!

so tess did great at grandma lynn's house that night, and andrew and i got to enjoy a much needed night to ourselves - we went to a christmas party out at the barn and then got a night without a baby monitor. we can't wait to do it again! don't get me wrong, but it's nice to be married and not have to care for your child every once in awhile too! then we had christmas, and everyone came over to our house instead of making us travel around a toddler's naptime, which was great. we also had nana stay over one night, so that andrew and i could have another date (this time allll alone out to the melting pot!). then we had new years at a friend's house and took tess to spend the night... the night was fun, but as soon as we went to bed, tess woke up every hour, so we left early that morning and drove home to try and sleep it off.

i actually took the week between christmas and new years as vacation, so although i worked christmas eve and jan 2, i had a nice long break, when andrew was also off, for the first time in over a year. it was awesome. neither of us ever wanted to go back to work again. why aren't we independently wealthy?

well, my child has beckoned me to come sit with her, so that's all i have time for now!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

tess's first night away from home!

well she's been away from home before, but tonight will be tess's first sleepover with no parents involved! she's going to her grandma lynn's house ALL night, and we're so excited! i'll post again with the full report :-)